i want to travel down memory lane.
i want to think about what could’ve been.
i want to feel the happiness or the sadness that i would have to go through.
i want to just sit and settle down,
go to school, go to work.
come home, chill with my SO,
go crazy with friends.
but how is that supposed to happen?
i wish there was a time machine go to the future and see if it was all worth it.
or maybe go back,
be a little more observant,
see what the problem was and then fix it.
it’s like i’ve freed so many balloons away already.
too many tears spent on useless things,
i’m happy for you all,
i really am.
but when is it me?
i find this very very amusing,
when you’re young,
and you don’t listen to your parents,
they’ll probably threaten you with…
IF YOU DON’T LISTEN THEN YOU’RE NOT GONNA GET THIS TOY!!!
and then you’ll be like…
oh shit. no toy?!
and so you listen to them.
and when you’re in high school
it goes to
IF YOU DON’T CLEAN YOUR ROOM YOU’RE NOT GOING OUT.
and you’re like…
can’t go out and hang with friends? must clean room!
and just now.
IF YOU DON’T CLEAN THAT UP. I WON’T LET YOU DRIVE.
what a treat. LOL
such a big big threat LOL
oh, i’ve grown up so much,
when it’s final,
you really can’t help to have this really helpless feeling,
or this feeling where, the world’s gonna end.
maybe not everyone has this feeling,
and only those people that just don’t work hard enough on a daily basis at school *coughMEcough*
or sometimes, the “as long as you tried your best” just doesn’t cut it,
when you know YOUR best, isn’t as good as other people,
and you’re still gonna be below average,
in the end,
you honestly tried, maybe not as hard as you wish you could’ve…
i hope this will be the last time i tell myself.
next year will be better. next year, i will work hard.
but till then,
all i can do is put all my will power in a bucket and some books, and some time,
mix it all up and hope for the best,
cuz right now.
i’m feeling really pathetic,
it’s so hard to start blogging again after you stopped…
i’ve tried three times already.
first, i thought about it, but then decided i’ll shower first.
second, i sat there with the page open at like…1130am i think? and decided i was too hungry to think (EXCUSE!
this was in between attempt 2 and 3,
i got distracted and started watching WONGFUWEEKENDS 44.
third, after i ate. i surf youtube, FAILED to blog and then it was time to go out to the auto show.
what have we learned?
don’t stop blogging,
you’ll get too lazy to sit and type everything out.
but i have to admit,
apart from music to keep the mind sane.
blogging really calms me down.
cuz i have to say, for the past 2 months that i abandoned xanga…
i’ve been pretty crazy.
thus the amount of content i’m gonna barf up.
lets start with some simple announcements
– helping out the jr badminton as the ASS coach TEEEHEEEE
– exams are coming up soon…
– SAW STEPHY. (cuz of YOURS )
okay i gotta start reading my english homework stuff AHAAHHA (aigh…)
LAST two THING.
1. GOING TO HK IN SUMMER. 3RD YEAR IN A ROW YO.
and i STILL have stuff i wanna buy.
2. and as a result of 1 (points up)
i’m gonna start blogging + vlogging in the summer,
starting in summer school?
and that would mean i have to get past my fears.
this will mean i’m gonna talk to my camera in public.
and to people who will stare at me.
cuz i’m on youtube. (not a partner though AHAHAHA)
wish me luck?
hope i don’t lose track…