oh my, what a feeling.

i hate how when you haven’t done something for a long time,
you don’t know what to expect or don’t know what to do,
it’s like you’re completely lost without a trace.
you wanna do something,
but you’re scared what whatever you’re gonna do is not normal, weird.
and probably just crazy.
knowing me,
when i start to over think,
i go CRAZY. i probably become really really messed up LOL
</3 embarrassinggg….

all guess it’s really normal,
i’ve always been approached,
and the only time i took things into my only hands was in grade 8 with ronny
i was probably crazy LOL
and the next time was with calvin wong.
and that time i was DEFINITELY crazy.
i’m gonna say this word for word now, so no one laugh at me.
i think i was drunk off air or something when this happened.
i asked him out TWICE. and both times i got rejected.
WHY DID I DO THAT!? i don’t know 🙂
i’m crazy remember?

and then after that i was always approached,
it’s been a while since i’ve spontaneously like someone…
and now, i don’t know what to do.
what’s normal?
what do i do?
what does it mean when he doesn’t reply? (he’s probably busy but jeez. i’m crazy remember?)
its like the world is a complete blank.
i’m so lost again.
i wanna be brave and take matters into my own hands again.
i know it’s really common for girls to be so up front again.
but what if he thinks it’s weird? :
and i don’t even know if he likes anyone or a significant other already…
that’s sad isn’t it? (well at least his fb says he doesn’t, but how often is that true?)

not saying all guys are the same,
but how often do this like some girl with short hair and a bold attitude?
well all i can say that the people that do,
deep respects man, respect. HAHAHA X)

lets just hope all goes well.  🙂
if not?
then it just wasn’t ment to be eh? X)


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