it scares me to realize.

okay hk + tw blog with be further delayed

direct quote:

“…well i think the numbers are gonna go down now,
cause one, my dad needs to work,
and two, my dad’s really getting old now,
he’s starting to forget things really easily,
i’m starting to notice it,
and my mom needs to go take care of him…”

my mom’s a total bitch,
my dad’s pretty mean sometimes,
they give me a lot of pressure at school and at home,
they don’t expect me to get straight As
but they do expect a lot out of me
they yell at me alot
sometimes i vent out to my friends telling them how bitchy they are
and they agree, my mom is crazy, my dad’s a bitch sometimes
even my aunt and uncle think so,
they tell me, they only worry cause i’ve been innocent as a child.
maybe now you think my parents are evil

but deep down,
if you ask me do i love my parents?
HELL YEA.
but only today do i realize that my parents are getting old,
he’s starting to forget things easily,
even my mom said so
and i’m scared,
not cursing anything, TOUCHWOOD
but what am i gonna do if anything happens?

i’m fucking scared.

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i hate leaving. </3

 before i continue with writing about my hk and tw trip
i would like to express some feelings 🙂

call me a loser, or tell me that i’m weak
but everytime i leave hk,
i always end up crying
not because i have to leave this AWESOME entertainment city
nor is it cuz i won’t get to shop as much as i do,
but it’s cuz i know, once i return home,
i’ll be trapped in my house,
every single fucking day,
i’ll lose all my freedom,
and one day,
not cursing anything, TOUCH WOOD,
if anything happens to my grandparents,
i don’t know what i’ll do,
everytime i go back to hk
i experience this love that’s stronger than my parents

FUCK,
i’ll miss you HK </3

hopefully see you next year,
if not?
see you in 2 years.
keep in touch

time for massive update luu~

Aug. 14
went out for dinner with my dad’s friend across the ocean LOL
then went for drinks at this restaurant
dude that place was pretty cool yo!
it has a ps2, cad, balls table,
pretty place,
and HELL,
hk parking lots are scary D:<
oh god…

Aug. 15
walked around mk to look for a torch for my mommy LOL
YAY FIRE! 😀
jk 😛
went to the beach ar! 😀
yay-ness X)
afterwards went home to eat congee and noodles
yum mang~
but so full
and at night went to my aunt’s house for sleep over ❤
kekek slept with momo and sai Lo
rofl,
woke up in the middle to the night to find momo licking my face
i was like wtf wtf wtf?!?!

Aug. 16
went out with Aunt and AidanBB to 尖沙嘴
and ate mcDix with him AHAHAHA
cute stuff manng X)
when you tell him to do the peace sign he does a hi5 hand bwhahahaha
then aidan and “ah wah” went home~
and aunt and i walked around X)
went to 又一成 and ate sushii
LOG ON. ftw~
ate dinner with 曉樺lang lui again
good times yo 8)
fuck i love you evaa

Aug. 17
went to 尖沙嘴 with parentss
HELLYES,
another pair of Doctor Martens ♥
leather boots are sex.
went to city super to buy steak with uncle
cuz we’re eatting…white food LOL
pretty damn good yoo!
but the steak there is so fucking $ D:<
watch the taiwan fundraiser showw 🙂

next blog?
my whole tw trip
ROFL.
word for word from my book >:)

rainnn ><

dude raining so much D:

wednesday…Aug 12.
went out to eat breakfast with porpor 🙂
treated her to it too 😀
OMFG,
cold horlick at that restraunt was SO FUCKING GOOODDD
♥ LUFF IT.
then went to “duk fook” to walk around,
didn’t buy anything :
met up with guuu
and went to those MK places
got this really cool ring
but i LOST IT.
 </3 er,
not good
gonnna go there to get another one 😀
only 20 hkd borrrrr  X)
walked around more,
went to 新世紀 with eva
sticky pics and dinner at the spagetti house X)
yum yumm 😉
went to go stalk FIND hot cousin
and eva’s first impression was like
OMG UR COUSIN IS SO HOT
rofl 8)
then that’s about it 😛

aug 13
this morning,
went to eat at fairwood 😛
then came home,
and i’ve been sitting at home for a few hours now ._.
rofl might go find momo and sai lo and AIDAN! X)
yay 😀

i need to find something to do…

for the first few hours after she changed my stat,
i felt really evil and happy
but please know,
that i couldn’t stand knowing that you’ll be reading thinking WTF?!
i still care and “guan sum” you

VINCENNNNTTT!!!!!!
where are you?

HK09` day #2

you know,
hk isn’t really that hot
it’s just humid ==…
and wet arg?

i’m sorry i had to say this,
but then i went to my PORPOR’S hows for dinner,
2BIU-GOR is fucking hot,
i know that sounds incredibly wrong,
but dude, good looking 😉

my grandparents think my hair looks good 😉
MIYAKO FTW BIETCHES. ❤

um,
plane ride was alright,
was writing in my book the whole time
finally finished that story i promised chanel 😀

day 1
didn’t do much,
walked around alot 😛
was planning to go to this beach or lake or w.e it is to swim…
but it started raining DOG SHIT,
</3
yea lets all save some water and go out to take a shower =o=””
gah, so gay…
went to porpor’s house for dinner,
went home,
sleep sleep sleep

day 2
this morning
went to eat jook with yeh-yeh, mama and uncleeeeeee
then came home,
and how i’m hogging the comp 😀
replying all my messages 🙂
watching harry potter again tonight 🙂

fk, vince i need you, my punching bag </3
i’m thinking bad things again ><
YELL AT ME!

update more later 🙂
ps. getting a lap top 😀

8/8

i’m gonna write today’s post in english for vincent’s sake
LOL,
learn chinese damn it,
i like writing xanga in chinese >____>

i’m leaving now 8)
time to fly back to my REAL home
take off at 14:20.
planning not to sleep the whole way rofl

gonna be writing in my journal
cuz i don’t think i’ll be able to touch the comp for a while,

why is it that i always go back to hk under the same situation?
i guess this is just what my life has in store for me,

SEE Y`ALL IN 3 WEEKS,


YAN OUT.

PEACE

ps: dont kill urself vince. =_____,=
       and no drinking PLEASEE!!!

最後一日, 少過24小時.

今日,
好早返到學校,
冇嘢做
終於同鄧SIR講中文 X)
TANYA: 鄧SIR寫完末呀?
鄧SIR: 做咩呀? 想請阿SIR飲茶?
鄧SIR真喺得意~ X)

同CRISTA, EDWIN, WINNI & CAREN
去IZUMIYA食嘢,
之後去咗ESPOT
玩TAIKO, MT
哈哈哈!!!

心情好番啲,
去咗溫我個出氣袋,
盧少, VINCENT!
打咗佢好大力, 好多下
多謝, 多謝. 感激!
去玩MT個時,
好爽, 好舒服
等巴士返屋企見到LUCAS
我大叫 “我返香港啦!!!!!”
好開心,
但喺,
你話嚟還番啲嘢啤我個時,
我以為我可以好冷淡,
但喺我再一次錯咗,
音樂放到最大, 以為會舒服啲.
一啲都冇…
你到咗,
我本來想慢慢啤你, 想冷靜.
做唔到.
對唔住.
我SLAM咗門,
SLAM完之後,
我望住你,
企係我門口
真喺 “SO CLOSE, YET SO FAR AWAY”
忍唔住,
喊咗出嚟
舒服番啲..
如果我可以從頭嚟過,
我唔會咁做.
SORRY.

我要快啲飛走,
離開依個有機會見到你嘅城市.
因為, 我不知不覺開始喺街上面注意你部車.
好難受,
可能, 我喺香港返嚟就會好啲.


下雨天了怎麼辦 我好想你
我不敢打給你 我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉
沈默的場景 做你的代替
陪我等雨停


期待讓人越來越沉溺

誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰

愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味

一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚

一個人好累


怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜

怎樣的我能讓你更想念

雨要多大 天要多黑

才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過 別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過 別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉